speakup, child

Wakin' up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark
I’m watchin' you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less 'cause
You know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up 'til four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more?

.withorwithoutyou.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

second day of sch: status - struggling

okay so:
sch started with IT.we have to do some self-introductory on word.like why so chitdongchiang one.
yes that's a new word i came up with when i'm at a lost for words.
den i'm switching american lit for adv compo where i'll assist the ppl taking esl.dont ask.but tt class was fun.great teacher.
brit lit was.like american lit..catch no ball.the Holy Spirit transcends all understanding sia..
chem.chem oh chem.if you've studied chem in singapore and sucked real bad.dont worry.you'd top the class here.
we're in the second semester and what are we doing??"wad is CO2 called?" "wad is the charge of NH4?" "is sodium a metal or not?"
i had an urge to cook myself over the bunson burner right there and then.but they turned off the gas supply.
how?!my favourrite subject supposed to be chem!!
so lunch time came.which i will further elaborate later.
world history was art class.we were made to trace out the map of greece for 40mins thank you very much.
den i had to be of assistant to the pe coach for the elementary pe.i ended up playing myself with the teacher aide hahaha.

as i was saying: during lunch you see cliques.
there's the i-speak-vietnamese clique.
the i-english-with-an-accent-and-i'm-cool-and-a-boy clique.
the i-speak-korean-and-i'm-a-girl-with-funky-hair clique.
the i'm-from-grade-7-and-below-so-i-sit-with-my-homeroom cliques.
den there's "my" clique.i may have landed myself in the bitchy clique.it's too early to tell.
there's 2 girls who go on forever, and i mean forever, about boys.even when they claim not a single one in sch is cute.[??]
the other one-kris-doesnt say much so she's nice.just tt lately she's not in the best of moods so.
another one is lany..she's nice and all..but laughs at..erm.. i have no idea wad.
they've got the dryest sense of humour yet.
where's minhui??you feeling me??i need you here!!

it's quite abvious i stand out in most of my classes.
brit lit-i talk to cheeem for them maybe.totally different trend of thought.
precal-i've covered almost everything they have and havent yet.
chem-i wont say
adv compo-come on.i'm tutoring them??
history-i'm the oldest
pe-i'm like an overgrown kid in a nursery.

so you see..it's difficult to fit in.and i cant.
i quote from the movie What a Girl Wants:"why try so hard to fit in when you were made to stand out?"
it sucks when you dont have anything to look forward to in sch.only when it's time to go home.

i wanna go home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hugged you @ -- 9:53 PM --