Thursday, April 28, 2005
okay i might not be able to update for the next few days
long weekend
going to rot at some hotel well dad try to play golf
nothing exciting today.
though i did compile wedding songs!
1)this will be[an everlasting love]
2)the way you look tonight[my best friend's wedding]
erm tt's it
hahahahahahahaha
hugged you @ -- 10:04 PM --
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
read minhui's blog.can i just say i know EXACTLY how you feel.
the way i see it.we're both using each other as a benchmark for our other friends.
which wont work cuz rmb dear, we ARE best friends haha.so instead of getting all depressed.
i'll settle with my conclusion:i've already the one true friend i'll never find in anyone else and who'll always be there for me and one day we'll be able to make the same kinda memories we have.
here's my sad attempt to make you "shed a tear"[visualize my left eyebrow shoot to the sky and my grin den me going hurhur]:
[Another day has gone I'm still all alone How could this be You're not here with me You never said goodbye Someone tell me why Did you have to go And leave my world so cold Everyday I sit and ask myself How did love slip away Something whispers in my ear and says That you are not alone For I am here with you Though you're far away I am here to stay But you are not alone For I am here with you Though we're far apart You're always in my heart But you are not alone Just the other night I thought I heard you cry Asking me to come And hold you in my arms I can hear your prayers Your burdens I will bear But first I need your hand Then forever can begin Whisper three words and I'll come runnin' And girl you know that I'll be thereI'll be there For you are not alone...]always moNster
hugged you @ -- 9:39 PM --
had a meeting with mrs goolbis and my parents today about college admissions.
apparently i'm trying to get a scholarship in the US?
that means i wont be back in singapore for like years?
i really dont wanna go.
den the question of priority comes.do i put my studies and career before my friends?
the way i see it.i'll always put my friends before my studies.
but the lesson i learnt at youth grp was tt i just needed to think about God when i make a decision.
Dear God..HOW??!!
anyway i tennised today.twas fun.
thought about the tennis trials at tk when i first spoke to sheena.heh.
back in the days when she dyed her uniform black with her hair which she used to wash her butt.
tmr's the last day cuz sat and sun are public holidays so fri and mon are hols too.
long wkend so we're going dalat.
help.i might just die of seclusion.
what i'm listening to:
all the really old primary sch slow songs.
sssiiiggghhh-
hugged you @ -- 9:38 PM --
Monday, April 25, 2005
it is late so i'll make this quick.
event one:
at sch with the elementary kid.i played soccer.or at least i tried.
i got hit by the ball.
the kid WHACK in my face and flattened my nose.
i suspect my eyeballs are out of place now.
headacheheadacheheadache.
event two:
i'm now a member at another club.
the one in town tt everyone goes to i think.
ohwell it's funny seeing old ladies without hair going to the steambathe.
i dont know why.
den i gymed.whereupon i looked out of the window to see an icecream store.
not good.
and i saw 4 men trying to change one sign.cheap labour.
after i ran/struggled/puffed this guy came up to me:
"do you speak english?"-i was wearing the tk pe shirt see
"yes"i replied in my oh so natural american accent
"i noticed when you ran you were very heavy"-i noticed too
"you should use your balls"-ponder for a moment with me
"you studying here?"
"yes. i'm from SSIS"-after having to think hard
"oh i teach at the IS"-oh joy
"you know this very big guy in your sch tt teaches PE?"
"mr. wedge"-the one who laughs everytime i get hurt by the elementary kids
.....yadayada..
event three:
ate meepok!happyhappyhappy
event four:
slogged in front of the com for the last few hours
butt aches a lot
trying to finish two diff summaries of many many many words.
note to self:the auto summary on word does NOT work.
in desperate need of sleep.and of life.
hugged you @ -- 11:12 PM --
Sunday, April 24, 2005
to a certain don:
since you need a specific mention of your name to feel good and i'm oh so very nice...
dondondondondondondondon
hope you're happy now.
dont go break your bones or ligaments or any other body part please.
and yes.studying is good.not that you're good at it but.haha.
take care of yourself cuz i cant keep nagging anymore. :)
note to everyone else:please dont make me do this for everyone.i might if i'm as bored as i am now though.
much love
hugged you @ -- 8:44 PM --
friday: i dont get the "who's your prom date?" thing.i'm going by myself.i dont care.
anywayy.went to collect my prom dress.heh.shant try to describe it.will take pictures rest assured.
oh and there was snr youth group.i must say it was a good time.we finally opened up.
dont feel so..erm alone i guess.and we all have decided to be more serious about God.so yea.
let's see what'll happen.
sat: mom dad and i went for the membership class for our church.it was from 9-3.it was good.
went to get a hair wash and manicure.dad does manicures now.lazy.heh.
den we texas bbq-ed.good ribs.screw the diet for that day.heh.
at home i tried the dress and mom tried the make up too.
man we were bored.
sun: at church we had some testimonials given which was nice.
den there's apparently some kinda thing happening.among the younger kids.
i'd supposed it's to do with bgr and all.i really didnt wanna know.
but somehow i might have something to do with it?sigh.
i thought i've grown out of it.now i'm home.online.not surprising.
song of the moment: we belong together
"When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together..."
hugged you @ -- 6:01 PM --
Thursday, April 21, 2005
"everywhere i go, every smile i see
i know you are there, smiling back at me
dancing in the moonlight, i know you are free
cuz i can see your star, shining down on me"
i remember:
when i would scream your name when i see you
when i would dance with you
when i would talk to you
when i would laugh with you
when you would make me smile
when we would sing on the beach
when we would argue over neoprints
when you would write me letters
when you would sing me lullabys
when i would read you stories
i remember when all that stopped.
bring back the days
"There are times when I look above and beyond
There are times when I feel your love around me baby
I'll never forget my baby"
i'll never forget you.
hugged you @ -- 9:38 PM --
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
nothing can quite express my boredom.i shall try nevertheless.
i went to sch which has now become an ordeal of having to be sweet and unestherlike.
i came home-that in itself proves how sad it is-miss parkwaying with he[x] and banmianing with minhui.
i did my homework-those who have an inkling of what i am like, you know now i need to be rescued.[oh prince on white horse come now]
i came online-to my uttmost horror, noone was online to talk to me.i wallowed in self-pity.
i read ALL of minhui's blog entries-even the one on last christmas.i really dont want you to be here.i wish to be with you there.
i am bloggin out nonsense-i really dont care to interest anyone in reading this.but thank you anyway.
i shall be thankful for things:
1) for my driver who can back out of a lane without much effort.who can cross over against traffic to overtake the cars in front.
2) for this laptop on which i am "whacking away" quoted from minhui's blog.i really read everything.
3) for summer break coming
4) for memories of taonan.[5 plus 1> where it all started]
5) for he[x].[i know you guys will be there for me no matter what.no matter how far.no matter how long.i owe us all that i've got]
note to self:
i need to be myself.yes alex, i have realized it is impossible to go on pretending to be someone else.God help me.
i miss me.
hugged you @ -- 7:02 PM --
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
i've read sheena's blog and noted that she has referred to me and my diet quite a bit.
to sheena: you're not a ball.just black.and i'm no longer a stick.or at least the ppl here dont pee on me no more.
so today i managed to sit myself down with a plate of salad.half of which i discarded into my friend's mouth.
i dont eat a lot of vege you see.that was a feat i was proud of..
until dinner that is.
but first i came home.did hw.went online.
i can skype!which i thought was darn cool until a certain friend decided to spoil my oooohskype mood and went:"just do audio chat on msn la"
so anywayyi had fun talking to some ppl back in singapore.i miss talking.to anyone i dont call mom or dad.
went for my oh so eventful dinner.invited to this hotel tt my parent's friends stay at.
chilli crab.pepper crab.curry crab.hokkien mee.chai tau guay.
see sheena.i'm still very much eating.
note to self: dieting for lunch and pigging out at dinner will not work.
hugged you @ -- 10:19 PM --
Monday, April 18, 2005
okay so i blogged everything but it's gone.and since i've got all the time in the world.i'll type it again.yes i am bored as some really sharp ones might have noticed.
i looked into the mirror and saw two hundred year old tree trunks as thighs.
den mom goes "i'm the same weight as you!!"
hence my decision to start dieting.[i feel a big tight slap from he[x] coming]
need to fit into prom dress you see.
churched on sunday.twas an interesting conversation with mom and dad.
den i rmbed the verse i gave minhui before i left.
"i am not ashamed of the gospel...."
imma be a light.bright bright light.
i mean i'm here for a reason right.pls God use me.
today in sch i've realised i need your prayers.
the ppl here pub too much.get drunk too much.curse and swear too much.
and the coupling thing is started to annoy me.
i couldnt fit in.now i dont want to.oh well.
it's the kinda day where i sit for hours looking at my hundred and one neoprints[nicky/june/ian/daryl i know what you're thinking--neoprint *****]
i thank God for friends back home.
praying for you.
hugged you @ -- 11:02 PM --
Saturday, April 16, 2005
friday mom and dad decided i shall not go to sch.
i didnt complain.
so twas a relaxing day.went to the gym in the late late morning.
went to buy household necessities.
had jap dinner at my favorite jap restaurant-totoya
was going to be late for youth grp so didnt go.
came home and played scrabble with mom and dad.
i'm so proud of dad.he can make words other than "go" and "to".
oh and we putted[is that what you call the golf thing]
anywayy.i got 3 out of 10.
today i was a princess.or rather a taitai.
went to gym in the morning again but not until i managed to hit 5 out of 10 golf balls in a pathetic hole.
after gym mom dad and i went for our pampering package.
went for steam bath.
i had speghetti and apple juice first.[everyone say:yummmmmmmm]
then i went in for a swedish full body massage.[now say:aaaaaaaahhhh]
and then facial.[try:oooooooohhhhh]
went for foot massage next.[say:oooooo]
next was manicure and pedicure.[woooooow]
i decided to get my brows done on top of the package.[altogether now:ouchh]
all in all i'm now an over-a-hundred-dollar-five-hour-package-worth pampered taitai. [one last time:PPHHWWWWWWWOOAAAAAAAHHHHHHH]
den we went for seafoooood at my favorite seafood place-vuon phu II[no, you dont have to try pronounce that]
so today was a good day i should say.
all that was to entice you poor dying-of-stress-and-over-loaded-with-work-but-rich-enough-to-afford-tiger-air-AHEM-aka-minhui-and-gang-though-others-are-warmly-welcomed friends to come visit.
till den this is me.waiting patiently for july.
hugged you @ -- 11:38 PM --
Thursday, April 14, 2005
so i continue.
it was sat and ivan(church) siad he'd meet in at 4.15 at tanah merah mrt.
he called at 5 to say i must think he's damn dumb cuz he was at expo.GREAT.
anywayy..went to jamie's.saw je!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss scrapz and all that!!
i dont care-4e1 04 gathering when i come back for summer break.
sunday went to church den to granddad's.
had dinner at suntec.again.
monday went to meet june ian mark and daryl.
watch the pacifier..it was an awwwwsosweet show.
den whilst on the way three people grabbed june and i and went:
"we're from the modelling agency from taka and we're looking for new faces"
hahahahahahahahahahaha.ok den we met nicky.and had dinner with han solo han solo why your pants so low?
hahaha.nice nice.and NICKY IS NO MORE A NEOPRINT VIRGIN!
met will*waves*-sorry for disturbing you heh.
tuesday=doomsday
THANK YOU LAIPENG DAVID AND CHYI AND JUNE
love rotiprataing with you laipeng!!!i miss our nonsense!!
and chyi..thanks for coming.i love you.
went on the plane.but not before spotting a group of aussie ruggers!!!!thanks again peng and chyi.
went to stay at nat's hse first.
went to sch the next day.
first thing in the morning was a bad omen:DENG!
anyway sch was ok but i missssssssss tk and tj so bad.
den i came home with mom and dad(half dead-so sleepy)
supposedly coming home to a rennovated hse
and there were workers in my hse!!!!!!!!!!!
like WTH.
they were sleeping in my room.
smoking in the garden.
damn pissed la.like wad kind of work is this??!!!
and they used all our stuff la.
mom locked all our stuff in her room but they got the key to open it la.
i was fuming la.den they havent finished somemore say they just need to sweep up..
walau.
went to sch today.it was erm boring.ohoh got my report card
all As.thank God.
tmr is student led conference day.so i dont have to go cuz my parents dont want to.hahaha
going to gym tmr.
it's been great catching up with all you back home.
i'm looking forward to summer break.
missing you already.
time to scrabble.
hugged you @ -- 10:26 PM --
Saturday, April 09, 2005
these past few days were simply the best.to blog everything out would be impossible cuz i'll take forever and nothing can quite describe that feeling--it's somewhere near a WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay summary:
came home on thurs.with nat.
went to the night safari.
next day went to prata with praaaaaaaap(thanks for everything)
went to watch ms congeniality 2 with nat.
went for O night 2 at tj.that was gooooooood.
next day met with the tj ppl--royston,alex,dimi,marcus,joy,tracy
funfunfun.beef kway tiao was excellent.
next day went to church.poor june.had lunch--nicky,june,hubbie,ivan,deb,jamie
love you guys.
met junwei*waves insanely*
den went to shop somemore!!thanks weikit!!!!!!!!and cheap cheap ivan and hubbie...
met family at marche for dinner.and shopped a bit more.heh
next day went parkway with nat.den to cine to meet lucianna and deb.
shopshopshop.had dinner at crystal jade.
next day went to send nat off.went for lunch with che and mama.
came home to sleep.relaxing dayyy.
next day rain rain rain.
met peng na and mo at tk.
listened to the band.
ban mianed :)
jack's placed with mjj.
met amelia simeng and jaslyn to pluck tao geh.
good memories.
next day finished homework.-anticlimax-
went to meet prap,nana and david.
bumped into ivan(tj) and friends
and km and friends.i must be popular.
next day he[x] day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
met he[x] at seoul garden buffet 8.99+++
eat eat eat.talk talk talk.shout shout shout.laugh laugh laugh.neoprint neoprint neoprint.talk talk talk.laugh laugh laugh.
oh man.never will i forget that day.
and it's nice to realize that though right now it's so diff for us to be like we are with he[x] when we're with our new friends, we've already found he[x]--friends who'll last forever.to he[x].
today i got up laaate.just had lunch.going to jamie's for his bday.
need to get present with ivan.
going to stone a bit more.
dont wanna leave.
hugged you @ -- 1:13 PM --
