speakup, child

Wakin' up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark
I’m watchin' you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less 'cause
You know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up 'til four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more?

.withorwithoutyou.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

nothing can quite express my boredom.i shall try nevertheless.

i went to sch which has now become an ordeal of having to be sweet and unestherlike.
i came home-that in itself proves how sad it is-miss parkwaying with he[x] and banmianing with minhui.
i did my homework-those who have an inkling of what i am like, you know now i need to be rescued.[oh prince on white horse come now]
i came online-to my uttmost horror, noone was online to talk to me.i wallowed in self-pity.
i read ALL of minhui's blog entries-even the one on last christmas.i really dont want you to be here.i wish to be with you there.
i am bloggin out nonsense-i really dont care to interest anyone in reading this.but thank you anyway.

i shall be thankful for things:
1) for my driver who can back out of a lane without much effort.who can cross over against traffic to overtake the cars in front.
2) for this laptop on which i am "whacking away" quoted from minhui's blog.i really read everything.
3) for summer break coming
4) for memories of taonan.[5 plus 1> where it all started]
5) for he[x].[i know you guys will be there for me no matter what.no matter how far.no matter how long.i owe us all that i've got]

note to self:
i need to be myself.yes alex, i have realized it is impossible to go on pretending to be someone else.God help me.

i miss me.

hugged you @ -- 7:02 PM --