speakup, child

Wakin' up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark
I’m watchin' you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less 'cause
You know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up 'til four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more?

.withorwithoutyou.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

so i'm back in vietnam right.
and i thought since it'll be the last week of school it'll be fun.
it wasnt.
it was boring.

so i went to a graduation thing on thurs night to see my classmates graduate.
it's kinda strange cuz i've got all classes with the snrs and they graduate without me.
ohwell.it felt weird to know i wont see them ever again.

friday was the last day of school.
it was kinda emotion for other ppl.
i was on honor roll again Thank God.
have a whole long list of summer reading to do.
den danna who's this really sweet child who hugs me everyday(mikko's and abbi's sister)
it's their last day in sch.cuz they had to go to the US for good.
and she wasnt there to hug me.
that was sad.though mikko was.")
den we went over the nat's.
emily, nat and i went to get our nails and hair done.
was supposed to go out with the whole youth grp for dinner.
and the guys all cancelled on us.
which made us pissed.
oh well it was just me nat emily zac and cameron.
we had like italian food for dinner.
i went down to juice to see the snrs for awhile.
kinda will miss them.i mean they were my classmates.
it's depressing thinking about having to start at square one making new friends again next yr.
ohwell.the girls ended up in highlands having drinks and den came back to my place to spend the night.
the aircon leaked and i got sick with a blocked nose and soret throat.

today we woke up early to go to the airport to see abbi, mikko and danna off.
it feels so weird now.
i hardly know them but i still cried.
cuz see, they were like the only other ppl who werent in my class to bother to talk to me and go out with me.
mikko especially.he's just so sweet.
just when i thought i've found great friends here.they leave.
so tt leaves me with well not many friends.
zac will be leaving too.i'll miss her soooooooo much.
i mean i could actually have a GREAT conversation with her tt i dont think i'll be able to with anyone else here.
even the golfer kid is leaving.
everyone i actually like to talk to are going or gone.

i need to cry but my nose and throat are killing me.
noone's here for a hug.
the chocolates arent helping with this feeling right now.
lonely.someone please help me.

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