speakup, child

Wakin' up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark
I’m watchin' you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less 'cause
You know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up 'til four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more?

.withorwithoutyou.

Friday, September 30, 2005

why must things be so complicated.
i mean it was never like this in singapore.
people here..i just dont get them.how they think/feel.
but i really dont see the point in involving myself.
not when my dedication to someone isnt reciprocated.

that sounded seflish.
see.if you stop to think about things.
you realize how we screw things up unnessecarily.

sorry.
complete alienation.

hugged you @ -- 9:45 AM --

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

minhui's posts always make me look bad.
you write too well for my liking.
you're not supposed to make me cry while i read it.
not when i'm in sch, pretending i'm someone else.

can noone understand me the way "yu" do?
can noone live with the pathetic sickening side of me like you have?
i dream about those times...
i wake up, snap back to reality.
shut my eyes tight to see you one more time.

maybe i wouldnt have realized your importance had i not come here.
maybe we would have drifted apart.
maybe not.

you think i'm far away.
i'm closer than you think.
you think i dont miss you.
i miss you more.

remember i once said
i'm not that easy to get rid off.this is not goodbye.

damnit you're gonna be my bridesmaid.

hugged you @ -- 9:41 AM --

Saturday, September 17, 2005

i have taken so many of you for granted
but i promise i wont.

for all those who didnt dessert me when i needed you most.
my uttmost gratitude.
i couldnt have survive without your support.

i only hope i can be as big a blessing to you.
as you have been to me.

dont worry.
i'll be alright.

hugged you @ -- 6:11 PM --

Saturday, September 10, 2005

hmm.not boasting.but it seems i'm the most "fun"/funny person the ppl in sch have seen.
pathetic huh.
and considering i'm half the noise and "fun" that i am.gosh.

well things are.looking up i think?
i see more of myself.found a korean who lived in singapore and speaks a bit of singlish.
everytime he does tt i just wanna hug him.
speaking of hugs.
i think i made it known tt i dont like shoulder pats.
i get more hugs.
sometimes i close my eyes and try to imagine it was one of you guys.
really.but it's not the same.
you'd think 6 months have passed.and i'd move on.
but you have no idea.

i have found at least one person i can open up to.
i miss minhui so bad.

but i guess i've grown somewhat spiritually which is eventually what counts right?
i dont get the encouragement i need so bad though.
i do thank you all who tag and encourage me all the way from singapore.
but it's just not the same.

it takes one long distance call to make my day.
please...

hugged you @ -- 12:12 AM --

Saturday, September 03, 2005

i'm sorry.
i'm a disappointment.

but i'm fine.
dont worry about me.

i trust some people now.
i call them friends now.
that's a good thing.
thank you.

sorry.

hugged you @ -- 9:48 PM --