Friday, April 28, 2006
ay!i've got another newer blog!
june!it's so.!.
yes, that's the right expression.."!"
well thanks anyway
and when you're bored you can surprise me by randoming changing my template
just no pink please.
anyway.
noone can quite infuriate me like my dad
annoy.and agitate.would be mom
but dad.frustration and anger.
and so.i have sent the response to cornell
and also the living plan
apparently i've signed up for a roommate.
why i have no idea
i might just kill that person
blessed be her soul
exams coming up.but i dont care
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
so i see i have a new blog.correction, blogskin.thanks june!although now noone can see what they're typing on my tagboard.anyway story goesi've sent the reply to cornell saying yes i want to be on the waiting list for financial aid.in other words, i've said yes to cornell.but do not fret.we're still waiting for nus.i'm not the only one who takes forever to reply people.today, i wrote an essay.about my brother.it was good.i thought so.i miss my brother.his annoying way of making me laugh,putting my life in danger when he drives,making me try colorful drinks,introducing me to the weirdest songs...It felt like spring time
On this February morning
In the courtyard
Birds were singing your praise
I'm still recalling things you said
To make me feel alright
I carried them with me today
NowAs I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name
Into the sky
And I will wake up happy
I wonder why I feel so high
Though I am not above the sorrow
Heavy hearted
Till you call my name
And it sounds like church bells
Or the whistle of a train
On a summer evening
I'll run to meet you
Barefoot barely breathingAs I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name
Into the sky
And I will wake up happy
It's not too near for me
Like a flower I need the rain
Though it's not clear to me
Every season has its change
And I will see you
When the sun comes out again
when the sun comes out again....
come out.. come out again...
i will wake up happy...
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
snd ao.i mean and so.i shall enlighten oh ye faithful no-life readers of my blog on my day.first a summary of this week.t'was a relatively good week.see how it really works when you expect the worst and anything between that and the best happens.and you're happy with it.i am not hard to please, eugene.moving on.today, after a long 3.5 hr calculus test, i had fun.yes, i had fun, in vietnam.went bowling with the youth group people.for them i'm truly grateful.and den i came home.i received a letter from cornell.(i had previously had one from a perky student there who loves sandwiches)this one, however, said that they'd put me on the waiting list for financial aid for international students.and that if i accept that i need not pay the deposit of 400USD.so i guess it means i'll have to tell them that, yes, i'll be going to your school.everyone at my school now happily assumes i'm going there anyway.but i'll still be waiting for nus.hoping.this is a psychological toil.i hate mosquitoes.i wish they'd all die.NOW.die.someone tell me what to do.should i mentally prepare myself for cornell?should i still hope that nus would accept me?should i bathe in mosquito repellent?decisionsdecisions.
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
here's another one of my i'llblogsoiwonthavetorepeatitsomanytimes entry:university.apparently i'll have to go to one this year.i graduate this yr.from all the applications.the only one tt's accepted me that my parents are considering is cornell.for those who didnt already know.cornell is in Ithaca, NY.it's ivy league and expensive.and no i didnt get financial aid.but.we all want me to go to nus.right?it's cheaper for one.and i'd be closer to home.which is a major factor considering the fact i get terribly homesick.but.nus hasnt replied me and probably wont till mid may or june.problem comes in here.cornell wants to know whether i accept their offer by may 1st.or nus has to tell me.soon.meanwhile.we make a deposit at cornell.here's what will happen if nus doesnt accept me and i go to cornell:simpang is sold.yes.beloved simpang.(i heard the resounding noooooooooooo)mom leaves dad in viet to work in singapore.(this will break her.and dad)the family stinges.(we might not know how)i have to work.and study to try for a scholarship which seems impossible at tt sch.(suicidal rates are high)i dont get to come back for korkor's wedding.(my mom insists tt i do but.)i dont get to come back more den once a yr.(tt is if i get to come back at all)i get to wear a sweatshirt and baseball cap that read cornell.(this i like)i regret spending all tt money(my parent's money) if i decide to be a housewife.oh and i get a degree at cornell.den again it'll force me to grow up.be independent.and isnt tt fun?freedom?refer to the previous post on the art of self deception.what i need now prayers.many many.and a positive reply from nus.
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Friday, April 14, 2006
DENG.
explains the emoness i suppose.
hugged you @ -- 11:41 PM --
Monday, April 10, 2006
spring break's over.
and den i wish it hadnt start.
now i'm back to being the wallowinselfpitysomebodysavemegetmeouttahere prick.
went to cambodia.visited the orphanages.it was good.
but i cant help wondering if things would be different had i gone straight back to singapore.
anyway.i went back.not as eventful as i had envisioned.i'm glad though.hex:you make everything okay.i smile.not faking it.minhui:what am i supposed to do without you?thank you.church peeps:just the fact that you guys are still there for me.means the world.dont get me wrong.i enjoyed every single moment i spent with my friends and family there.just that i hadnt planned much.should have.know now not to make ANY decisions that way.well i've made myself believe all that.i can make myself believe otherwise.get over it.before you look back and think wad an idiot.waste of time.should have known better.trusted your better judgement.live by hex's moto.remain emotionally unattached.mind over matter.dust it off.in time.
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