Sunday, May 28, 2006


a little something my brother shared with me to brighten up my day
but it isnt the whole thing.the funny part isnt in here.
dont know how to do it.but it's at
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTHnwiTqsyk
enjoy


hugged you @ -- 10:38 PM --


i am the only one who remembers.
or rather i am the only one who still clings on.
thinking about the way things used to be.
the way we used to be.
we could take on the world.and more.
we were a certainty.
it didnt matter what we did.
we could waste time.
because we be together forever.
day was night and night was day.

today i read your blog.
funny how we dont even talk.
baffling how i dont seem to know you anymore.
it was like looking in on someone else's life.
now i cant even really be myself with you.
it just doesnt as right as it did.
sure people change.and we have to move on.
maybe i am naiive enough to believe that "a lifetime's not too long to live as friends."

but who do i blame now?
you?myself?
maybe the distance.
maybe our non-mutual friends.

and what's the point of all this really.
not like anyone would do anything.
and if we did.things would never be the same.
i'm convinced that you wouldnt want it to be anyway.

this goes out to those whom i was once able to, comfortably, talk for hours to or say nothing at all.
especially people from bfec.
i havent forgotten you.
have you?


hugged you @ -- 12:12 AM --


Saturday, May 27, 2006

do you like mosquito bites?i dont.

my nails feel funny.havent had them long for quite some time now.

i had airflown currypuff from old changkee for breakfast.

a crab used its pincer to puncture my dad's finger today.

i miss laipeng.
i miss sheena.
i miss rachel.
i miss yenchyi.
i miss minhui.
i miss us.


hugged you @ -- 3:12 PM --


Friday, May 26, 2006

today's the last day of "school"
next week is senior exam week.
which means i only have one day of school next week.
half a day really.
well excluding graduation on friday night.

somehow.i dont see myself missing anyone here.
yea sure there were good times and what not but still.
i think it be wise if i dont get all too excited about leaving vietnam.
maybe be after snr dinner and party, i'd feel more...sadden.

think think, what will i miss here:
-having drivers
-cheap cheap food(esp jap food)
-manicure and pedicures every week
-ridiculously cheap hairdo and makeup($3!)
-massages every sunday
-very fast internet
-my own big big bed
-my own bathroom
-bargaining for even cheaper earrings, shoes and bags
-half-priced taxi
-free entry into clubs
-free drinks in the clubs
-knowing all the right ppl in the clubs
-manipulating rich friends into buying me things
-taking money right off rich friends
-spoiling my hair for a very low price

i might just miss vietnam.


hugged you @ -- 9:39 AM --


Wednesday, May 17, 2006

i have no inspiration to write.so you'll have to put up with this plain old journal like post.

i did my nails yesterday.and eyebrows.my nails are RED.
i can explain: my prom dress is red.
i would greatly appreciate it if you dont come ask me if i've killed anyone.

so it's been very rushed.need just finished making cards for table games and voting sheets for prom king/queen/prince/princess.
kinda ridiculous since only seniors can be king and queen when there's only gonna be 4 of us.
michelle is not going so i've prematurely concluded that prom's not gonna be fun.
so what if it's at park hyatt?so what if there's good food?
people arent gonna enjoy themselves because they're all too bloody(it's the nails)self-centered/self-conscious/cynical/childish/ignorant/arrogant.

excuse me, it's one of those i-cant-stand-the-ppl-here days.
but den here i am talking about how i cant stand how they accuse everyone else(most likely me cuz i'm the vp of sc [the pres. is korean and so is everyone else])when they dont actually make an effort to have fun, when i'm depriving myself from fun just the way they are.
i suspect tt was not grammatical but howell.you get my point?

i need more time.to do hair.makeup.dress up.get flowers for the king/queen..

4 hours to do all that because prom is tonight.
and i have the time to whine.

BUT I'LL BE BACK SATURDAY!
and come back to vietnam on tuesday...


hugged you @ -- 2:06 PM --


Monday, May 15, 2006

read:i'll be back in singapore on the 20th of may till the 23rd.
my number's still the same.


hugged you @ -- 11:24 AM --


Monday, May 08, 2006

IT'S OVER.ALL 4 AP EXAMS.
i still have one class, us hist, but whatever.

for people who didnt understand my previous post *ahem*sheena tan bendan:

you may choose to interpretate it in the following ways(again it shows something about yourself.as i've implied 2 posts ago.):

1) try to read between the lines.maybe the punctuation marks represent different personailities and attitudes.and what i'm really trying to say is i dont like people who hold you in suspense just to let you down(comma).i dont like unclear people who dont know what they really want(semicolon).i'm fine with people who get really enthusiastic(i know i do)but just as long as they do it at appropriate times.i also dont like those who think so much,cannot decide for themselves and keep you guessing(the question mark).i do however like people who are silently confident(the period).these are people who are firm in what they believe without having to go all out to prove it to others.they get my respect.

2)maybe you might want to think abstract.extended metaphor that refers to something less concrete.in which case the comma might represent points in your life when you're at a high point but you know what's coming next will be a let down.or when you just dont want to carry on but you know you have to.the semicolon might mean repetitions in your life.like routines you're sick of.unnecessary you deem them.question marks are times in which you just dont know what to do.and there're just so many opportunities.but as many risks.then there is the fullstop.also known as the period.which are like specific periods, moments you're so sure of.times when you knew times were going great.and you didnt have to worry about what would come next or decisions you'd have to make.these become memories i keep.periods i cherish.

3)i'm just plain bored and random.i was also stressed over all the exams.was thinking too much.


hugged you @ -- 1:17 PM --


Saturday, May 06, 2006

reading sms messages from my dad, i've come to realize the importance of punctuation marks.
without them, the message, which, as established by my previous post, is already ambiguous, would cause even more confusion.take, for example, the phrase "strictly speaking humans are just animals."
interpretation 1: "strictly speaking, humans are just animals."
interpretation 2: "strictly-speaking humans are just animals."
interpretation 3: "strictly, speaking humans are just animals."
interpretation 4: "strictly speaking humans are, just animals."
interpretation 5: "strictly speaking humans are just animals?"
each of these suggests different meanings and attitudes.often,punctuations speak louder than words.

the comma, i do not quite like.it leaves you hanging midsentence, anticipating what might come next.or it serves to make a sentence more complicated and flowery, as if the writer wants to convince you or justify a point.sure it gives you an opportunity to catch your breath in a seemingly endless sentence, but soon you realize that the sentence continues, and that temporary joy you took in having a break midway, becomes a dread because now, you have to keep going to reach the end.commas hold you in suspense and clutter up a sentence.

i have not encountered a more indecisive and confusing punctuation mark than a period suspended above a comma, otherwise known as a semicolon.semicolons just link independent clauses which carry the exact same meaning;it is merely repetition.such repetition is unnecessary;it is redundant.or rather, it suggests that the writer could not decide which sentence was more effective, so he put both down for you to choose which to read or understand.this obscure marking that does not know if it wants to be a fullstop or comma, serves no purpose;it is meaningless.

an exclamation mark!now this mark is exciting, shocking and full of thrill and attitude.what enthusiam it brings with it!but it can also be seen as being demanding, or just plain rude.many people are also misusing this forceful punctuation.when used inappropriately, the exclamation mark produces a rather ridiculous effect!for example, politicians in singapore, during rallies, often use this punctuation at the end of almost every sentence!it is as if they are not convicted of their message that they have to resort to shouting to get a response from the crowd!i would like to believe singaporeans cheer because they agree with the content of the speeches and not because of the mob rule mentality where they shout when someone else shouts.

what about the question mark?we cannot leave that out can we?are you sure?what uncertainty this hook and a dot, of which shape many cannot master in writing, causes.some might argue it offers the mind something to ponder about.but the more you think, the more confused or sidetracked you get.sometimes it is also a show of weakness, of vulnerabilty.we become exposed to temptations and susceptible to injuries.from childhood("grandma, why do you have such big teeth?"--little red riding hood) to youth("will you be my girlfriend?"--playboy) to adulthood("how do you like my hair?"--your mother), the question mark haunts us, doesnt it?

now the fullstop is my favorite punctuation.it's clear.it's straightforward.and it's confident.it signifies the end of a sentence where you truly get to stop and digest the implications of the sentence unlike the deceiving comma.it is precise and definite unlike the confusing semicolon.it oozes with confidence and poise while the exclamation mark fails in desperate attempt.it leaves no room for confusion or uncertainty as does the question mark.yet the fresh new sentence succeeding a period holds so much potential.this extraordinary punctuation generates the life of a passage.the rhythm.the beat.the pulse.interestingly,almost every other punctuation is a modification of a fullstop.the comma is a period with an annoying tail.the question mark is a period with an undefined curve.even the informal sign that means "to be continued" consists of three periods in a row.this simple, humble dot that sits, unacknowledged, at the feet of the last letter of a sentence is in fact, the mother of all punctuation marks.its authority, intensity and power demands respect.

i have made my point.


hugged you @ -- 3:24 PM --


Wednesday, May 03, 2006

everything is ambiguous.

let us examine language.
you might be wondering how language, diction and syntax and all, can be ambiguous when every word can be defined.
indeed every word has a clear and precise meaning.
but take for example, something so direct and clear such as the signs in the subway.
"Dogs must be carried on the escalator."
not to down play anyone's intelligence, i believe we all can interpret the obvious.
but that sentence in itself can stir confusion.
does it mean we have to grab a random mutt in order to ride on the escalators?
a drunk man stumbling over his feet, after stablizing himself, squinting at the sign, may exclaim
"Ah! How true."
some other animal right's activist may be appalled, suggesting that not everyone knows how to handle a mongrel the proper way.or that animals should not be treated as handicaps.

how you understand something has everything to do with what you bring to it

dont blame someone for not seeing things your way, for not understanding you.
we're not you.



make sense of that


hugged you @ -- 2:15 PM --