speakup, child

Wakin' up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark
I’m watchin' you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less 'cause
You know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up 'til four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more?

.withorwithoutyou.

Monday, February 19, 2007

[WalkAway]

I saw you wit your new girl just yesterday

And I feel that I must confess

Even though it kills me to have to say

I'll admit that I was impressed

Physically just short of perfection

Gotta commend you on your selection

Though I know I shouldn't be concerned

In the back of my mind I can't help but question..

Guess I gotta live my life from day to day

Hoping maybe you'll come back

And though I tell myself not to be afraid

To move on but it seems I can't

Though a new man has given me attention

It ain't the same as your affection

Though I know I should be content

In the back of my mind I can't help but question...

I'm gonna remember you

You gonna remember me

The things we did, the way we shared our fantasies

Just you and me

My friend, My love, My family

How did we lose a love that seemed meant to be?

Sometimes I kiss her

And wish that it was you I'm kissing

Sometimes I miss him

And wish that it was you i'm missing

Sometimes I hug her

And wish that it was you I was huggin'

And I realize how much i'm buggin'

[DoingTooMuch]

See you got me all alone

Waiting right here by the phone for you to call me

Just to hear your voice tone

I keep on wondering if you was even feeling meI

keep on wondering if this was even meant to be

Tell me am I wasting time

Boy you showing me no sign

Is it 'cause you on your grind

'cause you're always on my mind

I keep on wondering if everything you said was true

I keep on wondering if you were really coming through

Now here I go again blowing you up

And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much

I'm out with my girls tryna have a good time

And you know I'm looking fly tryna meet some other guys

But it gets hard sometimes 'cause there ain't no one just like you

I try my best but I can't shake this thing you got me going through

All I can picture is the color of your eyes

And the way you make me smile

I ain't felt this in a while but I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion

Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin

The way I feel about myself 'cause I got self-esteem

Sometimes I wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy

hugged you @ -- 2:20 PM --

Sunday, February 11, 2007

been dancing every day since last sunday
and i dont recall coming home before 12 this week.

had a performance on sat.
dont think it went very well.
but i love you cheongsam fighters!
and we'll pull through ya.

and den there was chingay.
oh gosh.
i wonder where i get the energy sometimes.
only by God's grace huh.
come down and party on the 23rd and 24th of feb yea.

went blading today with the churchies!
was really fun.
and yes i'm sorry for screaming so loud and cutting off blood circulation in some of y'all's arms:)

exhausted.

sometimes i wonder if i'm being oversensitive.
or unrealistic.
or just emo.
but i do wish that you'd be the last one.

i'm my biggest obstacle.

hugged you @ -- 6:50 PM --