speakup, child

Wakin' up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark
I’m watchin' you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less 'cause
You know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up 'til four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more?

.withorwithoutyou.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

it amazes me how much people feel.

we've all had moments.

moments of anguish that brought forth ceaseless tears.
you cried out, in desperation, for anyone, anything to stop your pain.

infuriation that evoked such recklessness, that summoned the monster in you.

terror that struck so hard you started to disregard rational thought.
you were beside yourself in fear.

passion that pushed your boundaries.
you escaped into your fantasies and for that moment, they became reality.

happiness, no. euphoria that made you believe you could take on the world.
you wished you could stop time then.

confusion that left you flustered.
you lost sight of everything in your disorientation.

callousness that resulted in doubts about your very humanity.
but then again you really couldn't care less.

but have you ever loved unconditionally, absolutely?
that it wouldn't bother you the slightest if it were unrequited.
that you felt like you could sacrifice anything, everything.
and you did.
and it doesn't matter that it was all in vain.

well i don't think i have.
although i'd like too.
i'm too human.too scared.too apprehensive.

see, what's the point in having a heart to feel anything if you use your brain to govern everything?
so am i saying that we should just rip our hearts out and stop feeling altogether?
no.

i don't know LA.
cuz my brain's not functioning and my heart's stopped feeling.

hugged you @ -- 11:34 PM --