speakup, child

Wakin' up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark
I’m watchin' you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less 'cause
You know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up 'til four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more?

.withorwithoutyou.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

thank you

thank you for the surprise, for proving me wrong
thank you for the lily, for remembering
thank you for the earphones! for going through all the trouble

thank you for the effort
thank you for trying real hard

thank you

:)

[that perfect "aww" moment]

hugged you @ -- 10:17 PM --

Thursday, October 18, 2007

i would very much like to stop feeling this way.

please dont make me.

please

hugged you @ -- 1:09 AM --

Sunday, October 14, 2007

(in reference to the previous post)

i guess it's all a matter of give and take.

there's a difference with being accomodating and being carried by the nose though.
and then there's also forgiveness and second chances.
i mean it'll be difficult to believe someone's trying when you keep bringing up the past right.

ohwells.
is it worth it?
at least for last night it was.
i'm glad you enjoyed yourself:)

very FULLerton.

.happybirthday.

hugged you @ -- 3:24 PM --

Saturday, October 13, 2007

times like this i wonder

is it really worth it?
why try so hard?
too hard?
what for?

[toolatetoapologize]

literally

but you dont have to know.

hugged you @ -- 6:37 PM --

Thursday, October 04, 2007

lo and behold
another emo post.

simin said i'm the type who can hide my feelings all too well.

so here.
this is me:

i detest feeling like i'm in second place.
disgusted at the thought that you might be settling for second choice just cuz it's easier.
annoyed when i dont get your undivided attention.
hurt that you take for granted me being "fine" with everything.
crashed that i cant seem to trust you enough.
angry with myself cuz i get worked up over the littlest things.
apprehensive that you don't care as much as i do.
unconvinced that you'd give up as much as i would.
vexed at my own insecurity and dependence.
shit scared that i might be freaking you out now.

because you see,
i'm willing to do anything even you might find stupid just because i know it'll make you happy.
give you priority even though it's unnecessary.
worry excessively just so you know i bother.
get jealous over the slightest things.
and den impel myself to think it's insignificant.
take extra care to ensure you don't ever doubt me.
wait for you.
give you up if that makes you happier.
and den wait for you still.

see,
i am very extreme.
i think too much?
but even so tt excuse cant mask insecurity.
pathetic.
ridiculous.
imprudent if you must.
now that you know, can you handle it?
wad are you gonna do about it?

nothing

everyone's got problems of their own.
i'm not gonna be a liability.
i dont wish to burden anyone.
so i'll deal with me.

no, i dont hide my feelings.
i just manage them the way i know best.
screw it.
shut up.

hugged you @ -- 12:17 AM --