Thursday, October 04, 2007
lo and behold
another emo post.
simin said i'm the type who can hide my feelings all too well.
so here.
this is
me:
i detest feeling like i'm in second place.disgusted at the thought that you might be settling for second choice just cuz it's easier.annoyed when i dont get your undivided attention.hurt that you take for granted me being "fine" with everything.crashed that i cant seem to trust you enough.angry with myself cuz i get worked up over the littlest things.apprehensive that you don't care as much as i do.unconvinced that you'd give up as much as i would. vexed at my own insecurity and dependence.shit scared that i might be freaking you out now.because you see,i'm willing to do anything even you might find stupid just because i know it'll make you happy.give you priority even though it's unnecessary.worry excessively just so you know i bother.get jealous over the slightest things.and den impel myself to think it's insignificant.take extra care to ensure you don't ever doubt me.wait for you.give you up if that makes you happier.and den wait for you still.see,
i am very extreme.
i think too much?
but even so tt excuse cant mask insecurity.
pathetic.
ridiculous.
imprudent if you must.
now that you know, can you handle it?
wad are you gonna do about it?
nothingeveryone's got problems of their own.
i'm not gonna be a liability.
i dont wish to burden anyone.
so i'll deal with me.no, i dont hide my feelings.
i just manage them the way i know best.
screw it.shut up.
hugged you @ -- 12:17 AM --