speakup, child

Wakin' up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here, in the dark
I’m watchin' you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
And nothing less 'cause
You know I’d give you all of me

I’d give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
'Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up 'til four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come and do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more?

.withorwithoutyou.

Friday, November 30, 2007

A How-to Guide:
How to Deal with Esther.

today we shall discuss situations.

when you want to make Esther happy and not annoyed:
dont provoke her, pamper her.

when Esther's already annoyed:
dont pretend she's not, pacify her.

when Esther isn't fully satisfied yet which would be when she's highly irritable:
dont piss her off again, please her.

if in doubt, assume worst case scenario.
three simple lessons for application.
till next time.thank you.

hugged you @ -- 11:09 PM --

Saturday, November 17, 2007

FINALLY, a regular entry.
so no, you dont have to worry about thinking too much just to make sense of my words.

three words.
wee wee weeeeee.

reasons:
wee 1) WE GOT THIRD! for the anti-smoking dance competition(finals) held today at far east.
the competition was strong and the fact that we were prob the only non-mat/mina team, made us stand out a lot.which i suppose played to our advantage.and i choose to believe God answered our prayers ;)

wee 2) who else would i have imagined sharing my first competition with than MIX!wuahaha.thank you weilong for your patience and this opportunity to learn yr choreo.thank you rahman for travelling with me!and for making laugh.thank you GIRLS!mamasan sham and sharonash for the many many many therapeutic sharing sessions.you guys have no idea how much you've helped just by listening to me whine.and mostly for keeping dance fun.

weeeeee 3) to those who bothered to stand in really weird places just to watch us and show your support, i am but very very grateful.especially to those who stuck around or came back even though there was a 4hr delay.churchies: debbie, joshua, hansolo, joyce, russell, claire, ian (hope i didnt leave anyone out) i am very touched that you guys really came to show your support although that must've been an unfamiliar and intimidating crowd to be around.and i didnt even get to take pictures with you guys!blastards: hazel, idil, leron, grace, lionel (get well soon!), chun, fred, john, liren, erwin, joot, roz, caleb and definitely far from last, kelvin.thanks for your support, your shouts and screams, your encouragements, your faith in us.inspired.i'm truly blessed to have such friends.

now i have to study :(
my back hurts.
whinewhinewhine.

*2 months now. it's been crazy but no regrets.
i thank God for you.
i thank God for lilies too :))
we'll make this work.
the three of us.
you, me and God.

[grateful]

hugged you @ -- 11:57 PM --

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

"you just deserve better"

"do you honestly think it'll get better?"

err.

you know those things that irk you?
i mean hate is a strong word to use.
yea well, i have a list of 10 things i HATE.

1) roaches
2) exams i'm not prepared for
3) self-righteous people who really dont think they are so since they're on a morale pedestal
4) people who live only for themselves as if the world revolves around them
5) people who define themselves by their achievements and are just plain shallow
6) people who not only cannot respect the views of others but wont even hear them out
7) people who need acknowledgement, approval, popularity
8) people who, after reading the above, get defensive instead of self-reflecting
9) acne
10) rats

oh how i could just go on.
but how ironic.
therein lies the fact that i am very much like these people i hate to have thought this way.

oh no.

hugged you @ -- 1:07 AM --

Thursday, November 08, 2007

to all you who cringe at the thought of a mighty emo post.
do not read on.you have been warned.

must we always wait till something goes wrong before putting in the effort?
or do we assume status quo without having to do much?
i cling on to every single time we make up.
but it's hard not to think about how brief tt'll last.

how many more times will i be disappointed?
how many more times will you be sorry?

is this really trivial?
but the fact tt i place a lot of importance on it, isnt tt enough to make it matter to you?

time.
i guess i dont fit into your schedule?

attention.
you're always busy.so i guess tt's not possible either?

priority.
as long as you're free and it's convenient.

i might be wrong.but you arent doing anything to make me think otherwise.

i keep hoping one day i wont have to cry, to pretend.
tt the hard times in the beginning would mean tt things can only get better.
but you somehow manage to make me doubt tt.
time and again.

i dont know what i'm holding on to.
why i'm holding on.
and if i really should.

hugged you @ -- 12:57 AM --