Tuesday, January 29, 2008

i have been like a monk.
a monk who goes away every night to train in my discipline.
a monk who silently shares the sufferings and pain with fellow monks.
a monk who was isolated from everyone for 2 weeks plus.
a monk who is a christian(????)

HAIYA i have busy dancing like crazy for the past few weeks preparing for funkamania 2008.
on the 20th of jan was the prelims at central forum.
a big THANKYOU to

- debbie, amelia pretty, han solo, jamie for coming ALL the way down.we got a picture this time!
- weilong and sharon for lilies! celine for makeup! na for just being you! all the screams from the blast ppl.
- my dear hoopsider: jinglin, lina, becky, mel, shanshan, leron for sharing this with me.

never in my wildest dreams did i expect to get into the top 10 out of 31 freaking strong teams.
so praise be to God.

den there was finals at youth park 27th jan.
another big THANKYOU to

- sharon for coming despite the heavy rain at boonlay!and weilong. celine for paying 9 dollars for parking! all the other supportive blast ppl.
- my beloved rag dancers 06 AND 07! am very very touched.

no we didnt win but we sure as hell didnt lose either.
would i have done it all over again and drag myself through all tt torture? yes.


funny how some songs take the words right out of your mouth?

Been sitting thinking bout you and I
And wondering why were not getting along
So frustrated cause, what we had was a happy home
I don't know what the situation is, but I can tell in the way we kiss
We don't talk no more, it feels better when I’m alone

Sometimes I feel like there's no gettin through to you
Like you don't appreciate all that I do
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
Don't turn and walk away
Baby I’m slowly falling out of love with you
I don't know what to do
How did we end up here this way, what are we gonna do
I’m slowly falling out, baby we're tripping off silly things
Boy I need you to meet me half way, if you want me to be with you

I remember when, I be with my friends
You checked on me and made time to call
But how things have changed
Now I don't hear from you at all


maybe you were right from the start.
maybe i cant handle your busy schedule.
"it's unhealthy"
but we'll keep at it right?


hugged you @ -- 11:44 PM --


Sunday, January 06, 2008

i'm not pessimistic.
i just dont expect too much.
or rather i expect the worst.
but i do hope for anything better.
still there'll always be those i-told-you-so times.
den i wished i hadnt been dumb enough to hope for better.
cuz i'd start hating myself.
den again i get disappointed easily because i expect a lot.

wait

i just said i dont expect much.
maybe i just expect more.
for myself.

do you understand?
i dont think so.

SEE!i really hope you understand but still i kinda know you just wont get it.
and thus wishful thinking is a bitch.

and so i'm pmsing
but that's NOT THE FREAKING POINT.




i did the laundry today.

guess i cant help feeling that deep down inside, you're still searching and waiting.


hugged you @ -- 11:37 PM --